Heartbreaking Love Story
It was a fine rainy morning of April month. The sun was hiding very often between the clouds trying to tell me something. When I opened my eyes, I saw rain drops falling slowly on the window. The thought of the girl whom I had met for the first time came again in my mind. I started to think about our first walk, first kiss and my first love. I couldn’t believe that our love story was short-lived. The only thing this relationship brought into my life was tears and sorrow. I always had the feeling that she loved me a lot but I was wrong. She was so could and did not care about me to much. My mind was flying to the first month which I’ve spent with her. I remembered how I’ve start this love story in a fine rainy day of spring season. When I first meet her she was so pretty and it looked as if she wanted some help. It was raining and she was waiting on the bus station for her school bus. She didn’t have any umbrella and she was completely wet. I went closer to her and brought my umbrella above her head to avoid the cold rain drops. She said with a low voice "Thank you". I wouldn’t have heard her word if I wasn’t listening carefully to what she was saying. She was beautiful having big eyes, long black hair and average height. I was highly attracted to her and I didn’t know what to talk further. As I was thinking of what to talk, her bus came. Actually, I was supposed to take another bus, but I got into the same bus with her because I could not leave without asking her to give me at least her phone number. We both sat together in the bus. I thought of talking her. At the end I could not resist anymore and
I asked her, "what is your name" and
she said, "Christina".
That was the only conversation we had till we got off from the bus. I drove her to school and before departing she gave me her phone number. I was so happy! I couldn’t resist myself and was thinking of calling her once I reach home. When I got back home, I called her and we planned to meet on the weekend at the park near to her house. I eagerly awaited the day to arrive. The three days before meeting her seemed to me as three years. But at the end the big day came. When I saw her, I felt peace in my heart. That day I saw a nice and big smile on her face. I was getting closer to her as we talked. I tried to kiss her cheeks first and then moved to kiss her lips. The feeling at that moment was very nice as it was my first kiss. The start of my love story was very nice. For two years I loved her with all my heart but I had a feeling that I need to tell her few things which I did not like. I wanted to share everything with her. I felt a lot of pain in my stomach I had realized that the pain was due to the feelings that I had for my last relationship. I knew that I need to say stop to it for one important reason,"It did not work out". I felt as if I could hardly breathe and I knew that it would get worse, but in my mind it was clear that I had to do it. I had given her a phone call and agreed to meet on that morning. In few minutes I had reached the place where we had decided to meet. I came there first as usually and she arrived after few minutes. We have decided to go to a cafe shop. On our way to the coffee shop
she said:" I am freezing" (actually these were the only two words she said on our way)
When we get there
she said: "Do you want to say something to me?"
and I said:" Yes"She became curious to listen to me and said:" Come on say it please, what are you waiting for!" and she was looking irritated and waited for me to start the conversation.
I replied to her: "Where do you think that our relationship will go? In other words do you think that we are made one for each other?"
She replied little affected with my words:"Why do you feel to ask me that?"
And I said: "My darling, do you remember when I called you few days ago around 11.00 on the night?"
She said: "I remember" looking at me curiously.
I stopped her talk and said: "That night, I was writing a poem for you as I always did and I just wanted to make you listen to it over the phone but when I called you I even couldn’t say anything because you stopped my talk and told me very angrily that:"You have nothing to say now and you just wanted to talk at this time." I really felt very bad , but I kept quiet and I said sorry putting the receiver of the phone slowly down. I am still very affected because I cannot understand your actions. Also I remember when we had similar fights and I got sick. My sister always used to tell me that you would always take care of me and I was really lucky to have you. When I told you all this,
you replied:"What do you think I am nurse who would take your care all day?"
After I finished whatever things were disturbing me since long, she seemed to be disturbed as well and replied:"Ok. I understand whatever you meant to tell me. But I cannot see the point or what the matter is in the relationship between all these topics and what you’re saying now. You know me that I am not a romantic girl and besides you really think that my face is same to a nurse."
I was laughing nervously and I said:"Oh no of course not. I know you can never be a nurse because your heart is not good for all such things. But alas, this is not the only thing I wished to tell. How many times did you call me on the morning just to say hello to me. I know you don’t like romance but you do not like to make happy the people who love you either. You know that from the time I know you, I always had a love message for you but you never did any such thing for me. " She seemed to understand whatever I meant to say. As a result in an arrogant style
she said:" Do you want me to be a writer?"
And I replied back: "No! You cannot be a writer because to become a writer you need to write what you feel and unfortunately you cannot feel so you have nothing to write, but with all this I do not want to accuse you in any way because I understand that this is your style but I want to finish our relationship here and now!"
After hearing my words, I could see regret and sorrow in her eyes. It was the first time in two years when I noticed such emotions on her face and she said with hidden tears:" But …I thought that we’re deeply in love with each other, we have been together since long. We know each other so well, that I cannot understand why you’re saying like that."
I said: No. You have never expressed your love towards me. There is love only in your mind but you never showed your love, your feelings and your care towards me. I can understand you very well now and that’s why I have decided to put an end to such relationship now!
Quickly she asked me: You like me?
I said: "No."
She asked me: "Do you think I am a nice person?"
I said:"No."
She asked me again: "Am I in your heart?
I said: "No."
She asked me in the end: "One more question: If I go away from you now, will you cry for me?"
I said: "No."
She had tears in her eyes. I was really hurt to see her crying and I took her hands in my hand and
I said: "I don’t like you, I love you; You are not nice, You are superb; You are not in my heart, You are my heart; I will not cry if you leave, I think I will die without you; But you need to agree that we cannot carry on anymore like this. It will not work."
She was visible affected and she could not stop the tears. I took a tissue from my bag and I wiped out her tears and
she hardly said:" Ok. I am feeling much better now. I hope you’ve told me the truth as you have always done. I hope that you won’t ever leave me for any another girl. I hope that now you have no other hidden secrets to tell me. I hope that you are honest as you have always been with me. I was very disappointed to hear all this
and I said: "How can you believe that? There is no other girl in my life, as I love you truly. You are the only one I love forever, but we cannot carry on like our relationship amidst so many fights."
That day I felt as if two strong lovers were sitting besides each other as strangers. The sweet memories of love of 2 years have gone away in few seconds. After few moments of silence
she replied back:"I think it is better if we separate our roads" and got up to leave.
I said "I would stay here little bit more because I need to be alone."
We embraced one last time before she leaved and that was the end. When she went little far enough, I felt my whole body shivering and shaking. I started to have hot tears on my face and I started to pray in my mind
saying: "Please god give me enough strength to bear all this"
In few seconds, the whole relationship came up in my mind as a movie. We are characters of such movie and we all have to move ahead in life. I thought about what other said and felt about our relationship and finally made up my mind that whatever we done was right. I couldn’t stop thinking about her as I sat there. Soon, few hours passed by and the moon replaced the sun. As I as looking at the stars, I felt that my love story ended uncompleted. In every star, I saw an uncompleted wish, an unlived moment and uncompleted hopes. I quickly moved back to home as it was getting too late. On reaching home, I moved quickly to my room without saying anything to mom. It was very hard to pass time that day and I still kept on thinking about those last moments. I wasn’t sure if I was on the right track. I went to sleep thinking about the whole day. Moreover I had to go to work the next day and I didn’t wanted to be late. I woke up at 7.00 AM. I was going to leave the house but suddenly I remembered that I forgot my mobile phone. I took the mobile in hand and started to look in it. When I looked at it I saw 10 missed calls and a new message. I did not hear the phone as I had put it on silent mode as I always did and I did not realize that she would try to call me. All missed calls came from "sweetheart" and the new message as well.
I opened her message and here is what she wrote to me: "I have learned to love all that was mine. But I can live without the things I don’t have. But I cannot live without you. I swear my darling that I love only you and I will die loving you only. When I will close my eyes forever, please close my lips with a kiss to make them hot, and please cover my legs with white roses and on my hair please put a red rose for the eternal love between us. All this would cover my body by the sorrow that a dead person has and if you see a drop of tear on my pale face you will know that it is a good bye from me. When the ground would cover my body, that you’ve always touched, you would remember that I have always loved you and that our love is still alive. But please do not cry because I will always be with you even if is just in your dreams. On my grave with the flowers you will bring for me please write the word Happiness because I want to see that in your life. Please don’t forget that I love you even if I am not any more in your world. Good bye my love!"
I was very surprised because it was the first time she sent me a message. I was looking at the time when it was sent and it was 5.00 Am. I was laughing surprisingly; as it was the first time she sent me such message with a clear note of sadness in it. I was sure that I would heal the sadness that I created in her heart. I felt very guilty as I made my love to suffer and to cry. But I was extremely happy after this, as I could really feel her love towards to me. I really felt very nice as there was going to be a new start in our life. I quickly picked my cell phone and dialed her number but another voice answered and
I said: "May I talk to Christina please."
The lady who was talking to me started crying and
said: "I am her mother … my girl is gone to another world and I do not know why…She tried to call someone the whole night ….and on the morning I saw the light on her bedroom and when I got into her bedroom she was no more…!"
I dropped the phone down and I felt as if the whole world was revolving around me. I could not believe that my love, my sweetheart, my Christina had gone away from me forever. I went straight to her house from my home. When I got into her bedroom, I saw her lying on bed with no life. I went straight to her and embraced her strongly to my chest and
started praying: "Oh god! Please do not take her away from me".
Author I am his friend and I have described whatever I have known about this incident. I had heard all that had happened when I arrived at her house. I found him embraced strongly to her. From that moment, I have always been with him all the time till today. All the above words are his own words and from this point I was with him all that time. Since that morning, he did not stay a second without her until she was buried. He wanted to be with her on her last journey to take care of her as he always did. She was dressed as a bride looking beautiful in all her calmness. My friend was highly depressed by all this and was imagining strange things. He started to imagine how they would go to the church on the day of their marriage and they will stay forever having god as a witness. He did not realize actually that she had gone. Soon, the time came to burry her, and to cover the coffin in the ground. My friend who loved her so much said: "Christina. I Alex would like you to be my lawfully wedded wife and I promise you that I would love you forever all the time. I love you sweetheart!" From that moment onwards, he could not be recovered. He was highly shocked because of this incident and got insane due to this incident. His parents had no other option but to put him into an asylum. He is still living there at present. I cannot help him and often cry when I remember him. I am still trying to get him back to his normal life. Unfortunately, I cannot do anything to help him. But I thought to do one thing which can help him recover back with the prayers of many people who believe in love. I want to strengthen the word love in this world, so that no love story ends abruptly as this one. I want to see him back to normal and I would try to do whatever I think is good for him. I can tell his story to anyone using any communication channels with the hope that we all would learn to love with this beautiful gift. We can all learn how to love anyone and how to preserve this love throughout our life. This message should be spread throughout the entire world to keep the love alive in our lives. After few months I heard two doctors talking about the situation of one of their patient. One of them was saying to another: He was brought to the asylum before 3 months, but still there is no progress seen in him. A girl has died because of him and from that day he has always kept his mobile in his hand and is always sending messages. On hearing this I was curious to know what all messages he had sent or he had received. I took the phone from him over night and tried to call on the number but it was cancelled. I found the last message he received and I wrote it down. Here it is: "I have learned to love all that was mine. But I can live without the things I don’t have. But I cannot live without you. I swear my darling that I love only you and I will die loving you only. When I will close my eyes forever, please close my lips with a kiss to make them hot, and please cover my legs with white roses and on my hair please put a red rose for the eternal love between us. All this would cover my body by the sorrow that a dead person has and if you see a drop of tear on my pale face you will know that it is a good bye from me. When the ground would cover my body, that you’ve always touched, you would remember that I have always loved you and that our love is still alive. But please do not cry because I will always be with you even if is just in your dreams. On my grave with the flowers you will bring for me please write the word Happiness because I want to see that in your life. Please don’t forget that I love you even if I am not any more in your world. Good bye my love!"
